HI i’m still alive, haven’t been updating this space oh maaai

so i’ve been in the UK for a more than month! feels like I’ve been here forever though. good to have finally settled into the routine of things. I am liking it here, in Nottingham. everything seems to be going quite well. loading myself with stuff, like extracurriculars (volleyball! we meet again!) and a foreign language (deutsch. hallo). have a feeling I will end up feeling too overwhelmed by everything when the deadlines come but…deal with it when it comes la huh. quite sad cuz I skipped german tonight cuz I was too tired from the insane game ;_; sigh. thank gdness i had a hearty thai meal to replenish my depleted energy levels like omg i’ve never felt so EXHAUSTED before. like. i swear my energy levels were zero. it’s going to be like this every wednesday so RLY GOTTA GET MY FITNESS UP. HIGHER, HIGHER, HIGHER HIGHER HIGHER HIGHER HIGH—WE HIT TURBULENCE


speaking of which, went to coco tang last night AFTER TRAINING FROM 830-1030 my what determination kekeke for a UV party. interesting. spent like 2 hours there and couldn’t take it so we went back and craaashed…only to be woken up by the frkn fire evacuation exercise at 730 knnbccb. rolled in bed for a good 10 min waiting for the alarm to go off (cuz there was a false alarm just last wk at 330 am wth) but it wasnt going off so we checked and realised it was a REAL drill LOL got kp-ed so badly by the residence manager whooooops “my goodness, you have to be down in 20 seconds! … blah … you’d be dead by now!” um eff ni! noone cooks at 7am!

nothing else to say

meep. bye


eighteen more days til I leave Singapore, wowowow 这么快。没想到三个月一眨眼就过去了。2fast2furious yo I can’t really remember what I’ve been doing. lately it’s just lots of breaking bad (frkn amazing series, really worth watching. very well written) with xr interspersed with going out, eating prawn mee and buying stuff

this week is going to be pretty fun. what’s up:

cut/dye hair, browhaus
running errands with xr, getting things in place for 13 sept
oceanarium (???) hehe
mink with ma wholesome people kekeke
dinner with the og (?)
mom’s bday dinner
warwick summer games
hctr dinner (???)
phantom of the opera with xr mom and lin

hae mee diaries, m’sia and random stuff beneath the cut

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hello monday, the past week has been pretty hectic (orientation, jamnhop, beach) and as a result i’ve been feeling restless. i kind of enjoy being so occupied, going from one plan to another, and i’ve recently started seriously planning my days. today however i had a slow day, took a bus to coro and back home and that’s a luxury (funny) i haven’t had in a while. bus rides (when you get a seat) can be really enjoyable. i have less than four weeks left in sunny (really damn sunny lately) singapore and there’s still so much to do! high up on my priority list is the proj i’ve been working on with my dad but farkanina so. much. inertia. :'(

going to msia this weekend with mom dad and xr to see my extended family and grandparents. won’t be seeing them for a few years i guess cuz i used to only see them during chinese new year. but then again i can always go back when i’m back in sg. but yea just a 1 night trip and xr is coming along lol dat’s a big deal he has never met most of my extended family i think. wowz. and i think he’ll get to drive for part of the journey waha

feel like, there’s so much to do here, don’t want to leave yet, but i can’t wait to fly on 13 sept too. there’s a lot to look forward to (our new space, buying household stuff, decorating, meeting new people, settling into a new routine, studying, activities, being really independent), like so many new possibilities yet with the added comfort and stability of having someone i love/who loves me so close. but i think this (yearning for future) isn’t a very good mindset to adopt. i should really be learning to accept and appreciate the now, rather than pining for the future, i guess. there’s so much to be thankful for. still learning to be appreciative and present, something that doesn’t come that easily due to my Aries nature

“The Aries people by nature are usually aggressive, impulsive, determined and extremely optimistic. They are risk takers and expect the best out of people. They are always on the move pursuing new and exciting things. They are extreme givers and would break their back to help another. Aries don’t like living in the past with its regrets. Instead they have a competitive side and may spend their lives striving for success without compromising truths. Problems with debt are very common in Aries as they tend to bite off more than they can chew or become involved in too many affairs or tasks. The attention of an Aries can be easily distracted by something new and exciting which plays at the very heart of their manic nature.”

not excusing myself though. hm but maybe i can’t wait to leave because i know i’m still not done with the project thing and i just keep frkn procrastinating and all i wanna do is escape from it. i should probably face the god damn thing and get it done so i can enjoy the rest of my break no pain no gain huh. wow. journaling can be so enlightening haha

anyhow, i created a blogspot, name is inspired by m83’s album ‘hurry up, we’re dreaming’, i think cuz when i created it i was feeling dreamy, and inspired, and wanted to like post inspiring posts. and ‘slow down’ because i don’t want life to move so quickly. i want to savour every moment (but actually doing that is another thing cuz like yknow i struggle with being present and mindful). layout there is inspired by bleubirdblog, i love her i love her life i wanna be her LOL. i have no idea if i should move there permanently, like, yknow fresh start and all and begin my zen, inspired life bahaha but i really like wordpress. i like my wordpress domain name as well, toasting. tried to get that on blogspot but it’s taken! RARGH. so how you tell me. i guess i’ll just have to post both sides cuz i’m so indecisive like that. uGhHh

mmm yup will recount with pics or something soon i guess, peace x

SO. my macbook died after almost three years. you have served me pretty well. it was actually working really well. it died of what would be equivalent to a heart attack in humans — sudden and so so deadly. thankfully mom’s still around and she got me a new laptop. i have some gripes (am trying very hard not to explode)

1. my ext hard disk cannot be detected by my laptop. no music, no pictures, no movies…

2. i don’t have the ethernet adaptor/wifi base station. one from apple costs approx £80. am currently jewing off my kind neighbour’s wifi. i don’t know if £80 pounds for a wifi router is justifiable. it has amazing reviews though

3. OH MY GOD THE TILDE SIGN IS GONE. OMG. ok wait i found it it’s beside the shift button oh whew ~~~ omg ~~~ i thought my life was going to end. the brit mb’s keypad is weird…

4. candybar isn’t working well i don’t know why. sad

5. i am spending so much money in the first week. time to save like a mofo ;_;

6. i have no music…cept those in my ipod. very sad… :'(

in other news, i am settling pretty well here in Stratford-upon-Avon. it is very quiet, very pretty. it is starting to turn cold and i am quite afraid. freezing in my room here. i like my room it is small and cozy. i have yet to do a round of laundry and i am also quite afraid. i don’t want to ruin my clothes. but it’s k i will train hard to be a perfect domestic goddess. GO ME!!!

hello all (ie my dear wordpress robot)!!! how have you been?

1. I’ve got an iPhone! Still using my bb but will use iPhone in the uk hehe

2. I’m better more in control less silly but insane emotions still come and go so…yeah but I guess that’s normal so it’s k

feel like with instagram there’s no need for blogs anymore feels redundant but NO shan’t care how repetitive I seem, will indulge in reflection daily (try…pui) for myself mm kk

been so busy running errands settling visa whatever immigration stuff. sigh I’m going to be a foreigner in another land. feel vulnerable/scared but it’s ok I will do my best to integrate :) oh but people I’ll be mixing with are mostly internationals…at least for the first year so…not much integration to do more like DIFFERENTIATION cuz there will be so many azns ha ha hahaha >:D

have stopped working at poteato and so today I’m at dads office. there’s a meeting going on rn so I made tea for them and guess what my dad uses the same pots as the ones at poteato so I felt like I was so doing ~my thing~ can’t believe such a technical skill was put to good use haha


oh god I really need to read more and most inportantly, write frequently to improve coherency and clarity…

have a pile of to-read stuff, mostly nonfiction haha will save the list for another day

kk it’s friday enjoy the weekend!!! gotta get my meningitis jab and collect my mb later…busy day

also I feel like doing a fav iPhone apps post!!! this gadget has changed my life/made me more organised. a bb has a lot of the functions but not as easy to use as the iPhone’s. one thing bbs win at hands down would be the keypad tho NOTHING BEATS TYPING ON A BB!!! :'(

the past month, i’ve been trying so hard to make a decision. my head was in such a mess…but thankfully i didn’t rush into anything. i just hope everything goes smoothly from now :)

the past week…

1. signed up for IELTS. goodbye $310…

2. got my provisional driving license :) I CAN START PRACTICAL LESSONS NOW!!! which are going to be so expensive sobs

3. signed up for FTT – 21 June ohmy so far away

4. submitted my NUS and SMU online application forms ^^

5. i received the second half of my paycheck yippeee :3

6. had a very happy past-two-days ^_^

things i have to do

1. submit some docs to smu and nus, and pay the application fee

2. GO HOM CONSISTENTLY bcoz my package expires on 9 april OH THE HORRORRR ok going at 5pm today yay taitai timeslot hopefully the class won’t be crowded~

3. start driving lessons!

4. be nicer kinder more thoughtful and more grateful

5. write essays for overseas appz omagadz howz